I don't know where to start. Time flies when you're having fun; and the days and months of this year, seem to have passed by faster than the rest. 2009; has had its ups and downs. Many memorable moments were shared yet many mistakes and regrets were made. But within each mistake, a valuable lesson came out of it.
My memory still clearly captures the images of what I was doing a year ago; new years eve 2008 followed by a new year, 2009. I remember watching fireworks with my family and relatives at taipei 101; how I constantly kept wishing and imagining what it'd be like to have Ardi by my side. The feeling I had that night, how desperately I wanted to be in the arms of my baby boy.
January 2009; I set many new years resolutions, goals and standards for myself which were never met. And they say; new year, new start. So this year, I'm going to give it my best and reach my resolutions, goals and standards. I don't really expect much of myself, so..
1. Grow 5cm taller.
2. Reach and remain at 48kg.
3. Save up $3000 in my bank account.
4. Only get A's and B's on my report card.
5. Get my learners when I turn 16.
& that is probably it..
Moving on, January. I remember arriving from the airport, excited to go home. I was comforted by the thought of an angel waiting for me outside my house. I remember anxiously sitting on a taxi trip that dragged on for ages, and when we reach my driveway, there he was.. beautiful as ever. My world was in one piece again, everything was perfect again..
February. He was my first valentine. Walking together hand in hand, on the pretty decorated pathways of Southbank. How we saw amazing views together and had fish and chips for dinner. The soft cuddly teddybear I named Cuddles, the box of chocolates, the prettyful rose and most of all, the letter and card I received from my prince charming. He made my world feel like a fairytale..
Continued by March. We spent many days together, whether it was watching a movie, or going window shopping at various shopping centres, I always had fun. Whenever I was near Ardi, I felt love, happiness, many emotions I've never experienced. How everytime I saw him, anyone or anything around him blurred out, he had all attention, and only him..
April. Days continued to past, and on the 4th, we would always celebrate our anniversary. The 4th, was a worthy day to remember. He'd drive me to dinners, shout me meals, we'd do things I never imagined. This boy was sweet, romantic, charming, caring, loving, he was.. everything I ever dreamed of. And followed by April, would have to be one of the happiest months of my life.
Our one year anniversary, May 4th; a day and night to remember. We spent this day at southbank, eating iceblocks while we gave each other presents. I had wrote him a book about us, and he had given me a letter that left me touched in tears. We were on the ferris wheel, and he was proposing to me. Gorgeous as ever, I couldn't have asked for anyone better..
June, our relationship was unbreakable. No matter what happened, no matter how far apart we were; nothing, no one came between us. We were unseperable. I was head over heels for this boy, I love him from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, from the centre of my heart to the centre of my mind and every ounce in me, I love him and always will. I wanted a future with my man.
July. Every couple would have had fights. I remember me and him having fights, we'd have a million disagreements and arguements but we'd always solve it together and move on. But I hurt this boy. And there he was out of my life..
The month of my birthday, August. I wished he could have spent it with me. But I was at city with my girls, Fiona, Mchae, Christine, Angela, Priscilla, Grace and Joanne. Not much to say.
September. Running to the park early in the morning. He took me back, believe it or not. This boy was mine again. This boy was my property again, and I was happy as a little boy playing with legos. I knew we would have a rough start, but I believed in us and so did he. He believed in us too, and I knew we would work out..
October, our relationship continued to build and so did our love for eachother. My love for him grew stronger and stronger. And everything went back to normal. He would take the bus with me in the mornings, from 6 to 8. He shouted me Mcdonalds and gave me massages. All the little things he did for me, showed me what it was like to be loved.
Novemeber will have to be the crappiest month of all. I lost feelings for this boy, and we had a break. He wanted to commit suicide. Cause other reasons and. Not much to say.
Baby boy's birthday, December. We spent the day at the beach, and I bought him a pair of shoes, Calvin Klein Summer and I made him a card. It was a fun day, driving to the beach. Singing in his car, and unfortunately, it was also the day my ring disapeared.
Ardi, has made 2009 a very memorbale year for me, and I can't thank him more than enough. My heart will always belong to him, and only him.
